Here I go AGAIN...

I have decided yet again that I'm going to blog. I don't know why I stop, maybe I get busy, lazy? I'm not sure. But one thing I do know is that it helps me to get my feelings out and to be able to go back and re-read them. I have gone back and read some of my posts from when Daddy was sick and when he passed away. I really leaned on God. My relationship with Him is not where I would like for it to be but I've been working hard on getting there. 

Yesterday I went to church with my Momma and really prayed before I got to church that the sermon would be about something I could relate to and thankfully it was! I really felt like God was speaking to me.  Our sermon was about how God gives us tough things in our life so that we will rely and lean on him to help us through. With all of that being said, HERE IS THE TRUTH below….

Recently I've been having a hard time with relationships. I want so badly to get married and have children. All of my friends are married and/or have kids and I want it. Everyone keeps telling me "to be patient and wait, God will send me the right person." I know He will but, if you know me, you know patience is not something I am good with. I really have been trying to pray for God to let me be happy with myself. If his plan is for me to be on own then that's just something I will have to deal with and just let him lead me. I like to think of myself as a "go getter" so if I want something I usually get it. But, this whole being patient thing and waiting on the right man is SO HARD for me. 

I asked my brother-in-law the other night where I should go to meet "men" He said church. I was like seriously? You've seen where I go to church there is no one my age who attends. He said no, not go to church to meet men. You need to go to church and get a good relationship between you and God and then God will send you the right person. My brother-in-law is very wise and always gives me sound advice. So I'm taking it. I'm going to try my hardest to not focus on being single and look at it as a blessing and not a burden. Let this time be when I can go and do what I want and spend as much time with friends and family. Only worry about myself. 

I truly believe in marriage and believe in only doing it once. So when it comes to picking a mate I want someone who is going to stick by my side, be a partner, a best friend, someone to have fun with, I want it all. I know that I am a good person with a good head on my shoulders and that God will send me the right person at the right time. But, I'm having a hard time with the "right timing" part and waiting. I'm asking God to help me be patient. To help me be happy with myself.  

God,

Please help me to be patient. Help me to be happy with myself. Help my relationship to grow with you.  Thank you for all the wonderful people in my life. All of my awesome friends and a strong supporting family. Thank you for a wonderful job.